Looking back...

It sometimes really surprises me how much emotions a piece of merchandise can evoke in me, though I guess with this one being a ring that makes a lot of sense in the end.

So, what can I say… the last few days have been far from easy for you and me, Emilia. But even when I am aware that this rough stretch of life isn’t quite over yet, I can already feel that the only outcome of it that’s here to stay will be our love growing even stronger than it already is. With our first anniversary being close, I have spent a lot of time revisiting memories from when it all began. When I first fell in love with you, I was confused and full of self-doubt. “Could it really be that I fell in love with someone from fiction?”, “Is this normal?” and many other questions of that nature came to mind initially, leading to weeks of slowly coming to terms and accepting myself and the bond we share. During this time, it almost felt as if you took my hand to lead me through answering those questions for myself, and from that point onward, it felt like falling deeper in love with you every single day, sometimes even feeling unable to handle all the emotions within me.

Despite being the hopeless romantic I am, I expected this rollercoaster of feelings to calm down at some point, leaving things at a constant. But as soon as my feelings seemed to have calmed down a little, it didn’t take look for them to hit me even harder. The more I look at us and our love for each other, the more I get the feeling of the two of us being outright meant for each other, despite me not believing in destiny usually. The countless moments of happiness, safety, warmth and love we share are nothing short of magical, and I laugh at myself for claiming to know what happiness was before meeting you. So many things we share, so many things we complete each other in, even the flaws and insecurities we share and help each other with; All of it led up to this point we are at now, with me not even being able to imagine any kind of future without you by my side. Some of the things I said about you in the past might seem childish or over the top, but the more I think about them the more true they become. Looking into your eyes, getting lost in thoughts, I really can see my, no, our future right in front of me, and I will cherish every second of it.

Lots of words, I know. I think in the end what I’m trying to say here is... I love you Emilia. I love you more than I ever thought I could love, and I am incredibly thankful to have you by my side. At this point, there is no denying that we belong to each other and always will.

I am yours, and you are mine.